christmas memories

oh my goodness, i want this camera! i am going shopping and getting it this week with my christmas money. ps i got trev a rockin plaid, and he said it was his favorite :)

trevor: "seriously mom, you should have seen how messy his house was... it was like beaver's house in the chronicles of narnia!"

i got to talk to my cousin in chile! i have been such an awesome cousin, and realized i hadn't written him once! :O
i am writing him once a week from now on

thomas's farewell! there were people sitting on the stage it was so packed. he is going to be such an amazing missionary. kellie needs to move to florida where her heart will be soften, thomas will convert her and they will be the best, loudest most amazing mormon couple ever! ;)

raider's toothbrush. please, please, please can the chips fall a little (or a lot) faster!!!!!!

december update

i have been such a bad blogger! so much has happened, and that's prob why i haven't taken the time to update my blog. i'll do a quick run through the important things...



CHRISTMAS DANCE! best dance so far! i decided to join to drill team group since most of my friends are on the team. for our 'day activity' david, max and i went to watch the mandonelles at their competition. it was seriously the hardest day for me.. i obviously couldn't act like it, but when the girls went on the floor to do their military routine, i had to keep blinking to hold back tears. i miss it so so so so much. competition was my favorite time of year, and i wanted to be out there so badly. there is no other way you can get the feeling of hitting your routine with your team around you while you school is cheering you on. :(

moving on from the pity party, i had a great time! i was very surprised that david would want to go with me, but i feel like he had an okay time.. for the first time i felt like it wasn't oober awkward to talk to him, and something clicked. such a relief!
afterwards, katelyn and i got ready for the dance.. she seriously took like three hours to get ready and i even did her make up for her haha. its ok, love her anyways. we went to get our boys, (lookin reaaally nice!) and went to eat dinner that was catered at the grand ballroom. i had to drive to the dance, and of course i got lost looking for the fairgrounds, but the dance was fun! only downer was that there was only one slow dance..

we left early and went to flips! the girls kinda let the boys do their own thing while we sat and ate and watched haha. david and eric were absolutely hilarious. i have never seen 18 year old boys act so childish running around on toy horses and building forts. after we watched.. uhm.. jingle all the way? i believe. i was exhausted, and luckily dave let me cuddle right in and fall asleep on him. it was great.
oh, and NO we didn't kiss!!!!!

the night before my bday, i went on a group "date" with david. however i didn't know it was a date until david and joel were on my doorstep.. just a babe awkward.. however it was a lot of fun! we went to see tangled at the gateway with joel and grace, monson and ryann, richard and chelsea, jp and crista and dan and mccall. ps grace and joel were the cutest things ive ever seen! they were just perfect for each other, and didn't stop talking in the back seat the entire time. i can hear the bells! (:

david is an awesome guy, but i see him just as a friend.. the 'football guys' are the most ridiculous group of teenagers i have ever seen, and worse than any girls i know! there are no secrets.. there is nothing we do that is on our own, and infinite rumors, twisted stories and teasing galore. obviously sometimes the things they say are hilarious, i just wish that david knew the truth, and we could talk without it being broadcasted across the school.




18TH BIRTHDAY! yayee! i definitely feel like a new weight has been put on my shoulders with the new "adult" title. i was afraid my birthday would be rough because it was on a sunday, however it was the best yet! at church, we skipped the lesson and had a nice brunch and read christmas stories. after church i got to skip my BYC and state youth council meetings, (WOO!) and go to my grandmothers for a delicious spaghetti dinner. grace, the best friend in the world, who without fail gives me the cutest thought out gifts in the world, brought me a quote book that she made. i loved it. then i went to jessica luker's house, (who shares the same birthday as me) and hung out with friends and had plenty of cake. also, to top it off, i felt so stinkin popular by my abundance of wall posts on facebook (:

oh david..

see the resemblance?
..neither do i... however i do not mind. poor thavid's body is all over the internet. i have never met a boy so shy in my life. i don't understand how he can be so reserved and then take wet t-shirt pics and post em on facebook. oh well, i'm sure little girls are glued to their computer screens as we speak.

dang, what happened to finding neverland?

i remember in junior high, carly poth and i would promise each other that before we turned 18, we would find neverland. crap, my birthday is in less than 2 weeks! running out of time!

i don't want to grow up! but i guess it's just one of those things that is unavoidable. (so i've heard)
today we did our senior project presentations. i remember looking up to those big, bad, awesome seniors and just wishing for the day when i could date all the hot football players and wear a princess dress to prom... oh wait i'm that old, but i just don't feel like a senior! still! it's 2nd term and reality still hasn't set in.

it was so strange to see all of my peers get up and talk about a career they were interested in, and realize we are talking about these things because in a few months we have to decide what we want to "be when we grow up" and go away to college

also, priority deadline for most colleges was today for admissions. i also thought today would never come, and spent the whole day frantically trying to get everything finished. i applied for utah state, byu, u of u, tulane, embry riddle, oregon, oregon state, colorado school of mines, and chicago. yes, a lot of schools but i want to have options! i really would love to go away, but honestly i don't know where i would find $50,00 a year to pay for out of state tuition.
by the way, i love my life! i have the best friends on the planet, i love school, i love my family, my brothers are the coolest teenagers in the world and life is really going my way right now

big smile :)

new motto

DON'T CHASE THEM, REPLACE THEM

which is, in fact, exactly what i plan on doing.
i've decided the only way to truly get over someone is to find someone you care about more

it's tough, it really is... i loved him for a very long time. and freak, change is scary! but also exciting! im looking forward to the doors that have now been opened for me. it's going to take a while, but whenever i have my doubts, i just turn on 500 days of summer. love, and hate that movie. love it because it has a rockin soundtrack. hate it because it describes my relationship perfectly! it is unlike every other romantic movie out there. it is REAL. yeah in real life, couples don't always meet in the perfect coffee shop, snuggle up by the fire together, get married and live happily ever after. WEIRD! i feel like our society has almost been brainwashed into what a relationship should be.. or the perfect guy. DONT EVEN GET ME STARTED WITH DANG TWILIGHT.

anyways, yes, life will move on. and i am looking forward to college so much i can't stand it! whole new pool of boys!(: woo woot!

it's no problem!

kellie anne carlson and i tend to bring out the 12 year olds in each other. i have seriously missed her so much since she moved to california. we have driven around wearing masks and turbans doing dances, and the kinda sad part is, i love every second of it!

on tuesday, november 23, bountiful utah was suppose to have the biggest blizzard in 7 years... yeaaah we got snow, but nothing unusual! basically the whole city shut down, so we decided to make a video while we were stuck together (:

ps if you don't laugh, im sorry, i think it's hilarious!
(references from harry potter puppet pals, and kellie and ali's retarded sense of humor)

so i thought i would do a post all about me! here are some super random facts:

>it is my goal, that one day, i will fly in space<

>my favorite bands are the beatles (like every other girl on this planet, seriously,) the shins, MGMT, jack johnson, the kooks, and led zeppelin*







>my favorite late-night snack is a chicken soft taco from del taco. awww yeahhh.<

>my favorite colors are purple and orange<

>my favorite childhood movie is the wizard of oz<


>the first thing i notice in guys are their smiles<


>i have alwaaays wanted to learn how to play the drums<


>i drink a diet coke a day<


>my dad is my best friend<

>every week, i download the free song from iTunes<

>i keep ticket stubs from every movie i go to<


>i am the most relentless car dancer you will ever meet. and ask katelyn, when you get in the car, that doesn't change!<

>my life long goal is to be able to create art that other people love. other people being the key

where do i fit in?

my eyes were opened today.
during lunch, i had to talk to some teachers so i just walked around the halls waiting for the next class to start. i walked down by the band and choir room and watched kids play on their instruments and do some crazy dances while their other friends were singing broadway tunes. i walked in front of the school to see a bunch of kids eating lunches by themselves seemingly in their own worlds. i walked down a hall where kids were just sitting against lockers not even talking to each other. i walked down a hall to find kids break dancing and listening to rap music. i walked past the library and saw kids playing computer games or getting ahead on homework. and then i returned to the third floor foyer. i saw the "jocks" in their football jerseys, and the girls in their stylish matching outfits. i felt like i had just seen every "click" in the school. i had no idea half of them existed. but my thought was, where do i fit in? i am no longer wearing a mandonelle hoodie to school every friday, so where does that leave me? i feel like i fit in, but i wonder where people "place" me. i don't care, it doesn't matter to me at all if im "popular" or not, but it left me wondering.

just a sidenote

when i was posting a blog the other day, i realized i put waay too much thought into what i am saying. i try and make the sentences perfect, and (yes i'll admit) i think, oh! would this appeal to more people if I phrase this differently? will more people read my blog if i put cute pictures and borders around my blog? this blog is suppose to be an online journal, not articles to appeal to the masses. so just a sidenote, if you don't think my blog is the cutest, most entertaining blog, then hey, don't read it. cause it's for me, not you (:

homecoming

it happened... homecoming with david! one of the best nights of my life. i don't think i stopped smiling the entire night. oh and im smiling now just thinking about it.


umm we look pretty good.


my cute "little" brothers. i have on heels! they are taller than me! gah!




look at that smile! :) ps i put it on all by myself :)

it starts in your toes..

oh saturday nights... i seriously have not had that much fun in so long. i loved being around hilarious guys that made me laugh without swearing or saying disrespectful things. and we played card games.. seriously i didn't think anyone did that anymore!
i really hope no one is reading this that is going to tell him, but here it goes. i think my homecoming date is the most awesome guy on the entire planet. ahhh. long story short, i know i like someone when i get the butterflies when im around him, and worst of all, i can't look him in the eyes. horrible i know. but definitely a sign!
wish me luck!


ps im starting a new diet this week (for homecoming if you know what i mean;) and i've lost 3 pounds since sunday. just sayin! i hope by posting my personal issues on the world wide web i can actually accomplish something.

i love you, andrew jenks

"i have all these great ideas... like a shirt that says LOSER!" (from one of my favorite movies, orange county)
i have all these great ideas for blog posts, but i never have time to blog! blah blah blahhh. we've heard that one a million times, right?

well my new obsession is a TV show called, "The World of Jenks." it's on MTV, and usually, when i would be opposed to watching any show on that channel, I LOVE THIS SHOW! it's not the typical egotistical, wanna-be famous reality show that we all get enough of on television.
the show is about a guy who decides he wants to film a documentary about other people's lives. to really experience how others live, he lives with the different people, and films his incredible experiences.
i would love more than anything to do something like this! during one of the episodes, Andrew lives with an autistic 20 year old, and i was seriously crying the whole time. (yes i cry a lot, but it was touching!) if only everyone could look past the exterior of disabled people and really get to know them like Andrew did. i saved this show on my TV, so i can constantly be reminded of Andrew's sincere kindness. oh, and did i mention Andrew Jenks is absolutely GORGEOUS!? (:

poster from Andrew's show on Chad; an autistic man from New Jersey.



poster from another episode where Andrew lives with rapper Maine. this episode was a little scary, especially when Andrew explained Maine had lived in prison for 10 years for kidnapping, and beats up Andrew on camera. however, it was a reality check that millions of people live in poverty and grow up just to live for something. it also made more sense to me why so many people support Obama. im not racist at all, i just understand now, that the reason why the black people living in poverty admire our president so much, is because they can connect to someone that came from similar backgrounds, and look up to him.

j-crew lookbook

i am in love with this collection! ah if i had the money, this is exactly how i would dress. i love the layered looks, as well as the sequins and sparkles mixed with the menswear aspects such as the blazer, boots and baggy shorts. i love how not everything matches, but it works.
one day i will create a line so i can dress how i want without spending thousands of dollars!

senior year!

can you believe it? im going to try blogging one more time... i would really like to have a record of some of my senior year since it is impossible for me to keep a journal

here's my schedule:
1. Spanish
2. AP Lit
3. AP Psychology
4. AP Art
5. Home Release!
6. CE 1050
7. CE Drafting
8. Seminary

so far, i love all my classes! im definitely not used to so much homework, but im glad that i am taking harder classes to somewhat prepare me for college. i also love being at the top of the school! i haven't realized it, but i was pretty shy the last two years... i love being the oldest because i honestly couldn't care less what the little sophomores think of me! i can finally be myself.
since my best friend is a famous blogger, i thought i would dedicate my first post to her! i really can't believe that we are still friends. we have known each other since third grade, and i love her like a sister. here are some pictures of us from over the years. love you gracie!